I have had it with trying to start a relationship. I can't just keep this act up anymore. I lie about it everyday, that I can get this girl to like me. She won't try and is just not into me, but I still fall in a trap. I can live with not ever finding love though. I see now I don't need to talk about how I feel. I can keep it all inside me now. I'm okay with this. I have been finding myself getting mad at people who maybe don't deserve to be cruised behind there backs, but others piss me off and I feel like they are just bad friends or maybe only friends with me cuz I made the moves. I did it all. I have a friend that fucks a guy after 2 days, but takes it out on me why he's a shitty boyfriend. DUMP HIM GOD DAM'IT! Don't take it out on me! So that's it. In a nut shell I don't care for dating. I live a very pessimistic life and feel selfish for it. What right do I have to feel sad if I pain is nothing compared to the pain other people feel. I put on a mask and keep it all in and never ever cry. Thats me.
-Matt (aka) Red

18 B-DAY =D

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